Life Goes On,

Again it's been a while since I made an entry.   Guess I've been distracted by events at home.  My sister died a few days ago.  She was 74 years old and usually in good health until about 3 weeks before her death.  I like to think she is now with our parents.  She was a good person, good sister and I miss her so much already.  I guess in time the pain will decrease as I remember  happy times rather than dwelling on the sadness.    Her name was Joan,  she had 3 grown children all in very successful
careers.  They will miss her, this I know, and wish I could help ease their pain of loss as I deal with my own. Her husband survives her, and I know it will take time for him to come to a place of acceptance and peace.  She also has about 3 grandchildren who love her very much and will miss her, and the good times that children are supposed to have with their grandparents.  I never had grandparents -  all were deceased by the time I was 2 years old except for one and I do not remember him - my mother's father. Although I remember some of the stories she told me about her parents and the early years of marriage to my father.  I always had lots of questions, and I think it made her a bit anxious trying to remember things.  My only regret is that I didn't write those stories in a note book to keep them.  What memories remain with me are scattered and incomplete, but they're something I'm at least glad to have.   Now I will treasure my sister's memories and perhaps write some of them here in future entries.    For now I'd like to encourage everyone to write what memories you have of your parents and other family members and friends too.  You will be glad you did, and others such as sisters and family friends will most likely also appreciate them very much.  Now make sure you call your moms, siblings and dad too just to talk and take notes.

Been quite a while between posts.  Although I have been busy writing some letters,  playing with my cats and trying to keep my house clean.  The kitties are cute and such company.  I wish I could take one for a walk without a leash on him or her, but they won't walk on a leash and it's far too dangerous to walk without one.  Cats don't respond to verbal commands the way some dogs do (no response is the usual).

 On another topic I have been losing things more than I usually do.  I put something down and can't find it an hour later.  I have always been that way.  The nuns who  taught in my elementary  and high school  were always punishing me which didn't help at all. In fact it made my anxiety increase and I got more forgetful.  I always hoped I'd grow out of this losing thing, but no such luck.  I do think it might have improved a little, but certainly it's not gone. I love the idea of a place for everything and everything in its place, but I was never able to manage that.  My cats don't mind  though unless I lose their food which doesn't happen - ever or their toys which does happen sometimes.

Animals are good for us.  They keep us company, warn us sometimes, share our meals and sleep on the bed with us.  While cats are not quite as demonstrative or obedient as dogs (or kids either for that matter) they are company and often one of them will have to sit right near me, purring loudly. Of
course when that happens I have to pet them and kiss them and talk to them and they seem to like most of it, but they don't like being picked up except for one, Seamus.  They tolerate it a little and then squirm a bit until I let them go.  But their most important job is simply being here and keeping me company every day and entertain me with their antics sometimes.  The telephone is my other tool for relieving boredom or loneliness and taking a one mile run around the neighborhood at least once each day.  I think I should find something more interesting to do..












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Good Thing I'm a Nurse

My little diabetic kitty who is actually somewhat large is doing fine.  He's sweet and gentle as always.  He is on insulin twice a day and several other meds.  I never knew the cost of insulin until I bought his first vial - more than $300.00 for a bottle of about a teaspoon of insulin. I'm not sure, but I think that makes it more expensive than gold.  It does last several weeks  Then there are syringes, and trips to the vet for blood checks.  He's a mellow cat and that helps.  He never resists the injections just looks at me with a puzzled expression.  He seems to trust me which is good.  He purrs when I pick him up and since being on the insulin he seems to have lost some weight which is good for him.  He was a little pudgy which could have contributed to the diabetes.  I know he needs more exercise, but I'm not too good at that.  I run a mile every day for myself and would be  happy to include the kitty, but he objects to that, ie he lies down and I have to carry him.  I run in the house with a string to entice him to run.  He looks at me as though I'v lost my mind.  He's probably right now, that I think about it.  He is getting older -  I think he's about 11 years old now which means that he likes to sleep all day and get little exercise.  I do have to work on that. Even though I have 3 other cats they don't play with each other.  They are all olympic level sleepers. If  I'm not careful they'll all end up as diabetic  -  what a horrible thought.  One is really enough. So if anyone reading this has cats with illnesses or unusual behaviors write to me and I'll post some of the letters.  It always feels better to share problems with someone so I might post segments of the letters.  Thanks for reading my cat-centered  blog.

My diabetic kitty

Things have been OK with my special kitty.  His diabetes has been handled by me with guidence from my veterinarian and he's doing well.  I do worry about him though.  I give him insulin twice each day and 4 pills in the morning. I hate pushing them into his mouth and trying to get him to swallow before freeing him from my clenched hands.  He's a mellow, sweet, gentle kitty and so much more than that.  I'm trying hard to keep his meds on time and watch him for any problems relating to the insulin.  I also have pills to give him which I do in the morning and then at least those are done.  He objects more to the pills than to the insulin.  He's good though, so gentle and sweet.  He doesn't seem to hold a grudge either.

When I do give him the meds etc he often looks at me with a surprised expression, as though he can't believe I did that.  He is a lovable kitty - so gentle and trusting.  I'm sorry he has this problem and sometimes I feel responsible because I didn't watch his weight closely enough.  Animals are subject to so many of the same diseases as humans are subject to, and often the causes are the same ie not enough exercise & poor diet and sometimes heredity which can  lead to obesity which then  may lead to diabetes, CHF, sleep apnea and more, not to mention wardrobe problems as well.   To some extent I think it is easier to control a pets diet than my own or a child's, husband, elderly parent etc.  Most parents don't like to be controlled by their adult offsprings. My daughter is in FL and I am in New England so it's not much of an issue, though she does try to manage me from a distance thanks to the invention of that amazing thing called a telephone.  So take some advice from me ie keep your weight within normal limits,  eat a healthy diet with lots of veggies and some protein and little or no sweets, limit coffee or tea to one or 2 cups a day and alcohol  should be limited but check with your physician about this last item.  I'm inclined to think that even a small amount of alcohol could cause some problems especially as one ages or already is diabetic.  All alcoholic beverages contain high levels of sugar even if they don't taste sweet.

Where I live   (southern New England)  winter is slowing down and the sun is shining, but it's still rather cool outside.  Hat, coat, jeans or slacks, and gloves are mandatory  for maybe another month.
But better days are just ahead.  It's been hard trying to get my daily run in during these cold days. I need to buy one of those exercise machines to put in the basement, but I hate to spend the money.
An eliptical or treadmill might be great and I could avoid the freezing winter days in CT. I'll have to watch for sales and bargins on Craigs list.   I don't have statistics, but I would bet that a lot of people buy these machines and don't use them as much as planned so eventually they sell them.  I just wish they were more compact.  That would be helpful for people with small rooms in small houses.  I guess a jumprope would work but I'm not sure I'd have the energy for it.  I guess I should give it a trial before I spend a large amount of money.   Currently I just try to run up and  down the stairs 4-5 times and when it's sunny and warmish running around the block works pretty well.  I'd welcome some ideas about exercise machines, and running and anything related to exercise.  In the mean time stay healthy and get some exercise.

By the way, I'm open to sugestions related to different topics.  I'm running out of ideas.

For The Animal Lovers

For all the animal lovers.

I have 4 cats,  I usually use the word kitty or kitties because it sounds more like what a cat is ie cute, busy, affectionate etc.  Cat somehow sounds a bit derogatory as in"just a cat!"  There are 3 males and one lonesome female who share my home.  One of my male cats, Seamus has developed congestive heart failure and diabetes. A pretty serious problem for a cat.  He's now at the vets and they are sort of keeping him because they need to keep an eye on him.  They check his blood glucose, give him insulin, and good food and at this point they have not charged me  anything, but they will.  I miss him, and go to visit him every day. It's fortunate that they are about a mile from my house so I can go back and forth easily. I spend time with him and bring him catnip (which he ignored today), but then I have to leave and go home empty and sad.  I want him home, but I also want him to be safe and cared for.  I don't know how to bring it all together.  The techs in the vet's office check his blood glucose levels periodically during the day before and after the meals.  I am so attached to this kitty.  He has the best personality of all the cats I've ever had: gentle, affectionate, easy to litter box train, and just plain cute, beautiful really. He's easy going, friendly and never scratches, but I don't have him with me anymore, just liberal visiting priviledges,  The cost of the insulin is $350.00 approx for a small vial. I also feel a bit guilty because I might have over fed him which may have led to the diabetes.
It's so easy to spoil them esp. with food.  Not so easy to help them lose the extra weight.

Few weeks later, Seamus is home and doing well.  I give him insulin injections twice daily.  He's very good about it, ie doesn't squirm, or resist, or try to escape and even purrs during the process.  I don't think he knows how important it is, just that I've always been very gentle with him and he has in turn  been very gentle with anyone with whom he comes in contact  including even the veterinarians and sometimes little kids who  aren't so gentle.  But I'm usually right there to guide the kids to a more gentle activity.   I must admit that sometimes I might hug one of my kitties a pinch too tight. But they all seem to tolerate it so it can't be that bad.  Sometimes the cats come to me for attention ie hugs,
petting, scratching or food and of course I try everything until they seem satisfied.  They are cute and great company.  Everyone should have a few cats.

Seamus again

I've been visiting my cat Seamus every day, twice most days.  I miss him.  He is at the vets because he has some serious medical problems ie congestive heart failure and diabetes. He is a sweet, mellow, gentle little kitty and loves being petted and massaged and chin scratched.  If you rub too briskly all he dose is bump your hand with his mouth.  He's just so sweet, and now I have to leave my home to see him and hold him.  It is breaking my heart and I cry every time I leave there.  All I keep thinking is how do parents with seriously sick children cope with the worry, sadness, the separation, and scheduling visits.  It's all so sad and complicated.  When I get home I give some extra attention to the other feline residents.  I no longer take their presence for granted.  My mother liked cats to some extent, but never wanted to be bothered with caring for them, When we did have some I did most of the feeding and litter box cleaning because I thought it was important and I wanted to be sure they were happy and clean etc. And I'm still that way.

We never had a good place for the litter box in those days, but here I keep them in the basement and clean them several times a day.  That's the part that many people don't think about when they are considering a pet.  Who will walk the dog, clean up after the cats, feed them when the mom isn't home and for little kids teaching them to be gentle so they avoid serious scratches.  It's a tall order that most people either over think or don't think about at all.  Got to be a happy medium there some how.  At this time in my life I do it all.  I live alone with my feline roomies so I am responsible for everything  cleaning up after them, remembering to feed them, sleeping with them, and taking them to the doctor.  They don't complain too much about that, but they don't like the ride in the car.
Seamus is doing well now, allows me to give him his meds without a fight or scratches and bites.  He's a really mellow little guy and great company too - when he's awake.   His meds consist of giving him an injection and some pills.  He's very good about it.  But I still feel sad doing it.  I also get a little hyper because I'm afraid I'll forget something  or he'll bleed or it'll hurt him.  I'm a whimp when it comes to my kitties.  I love them and I spoil them.  I kiss them, I invite them to sleep on my bed, and they seem to like that.  I'm a little neurotic about the whole pet parent thing.  But there is nothing like dozing off to the sound of a cat purring as he lies in the crook of an arm. However waking up to loud meows is not quite as pleasant.  Fortunately they don't do that much if at all.
I truly believe that life is better with pets, any pets that one enjoys will work.

Seamus Has Problems

Hello to anyone who reads this blog entry.  I hope you'll leave a comment  even if it's critical.  It's always good to hear the critics and then get on with the blog and maybe make some changes.  It's been a busy and worrisome time for me.  One of my cats has been diagnosed as  diabetic and CHF (congestive heart failure), but the other 3 are not so that makes feeding a little difficult. Right now   3 are sleeping and look pretty sweet and cute, and the diabetic one, Seamus is at the vets waiting for me to pick him up.  I miss him when he's gone.  Weight loss is hard for anyone, but for me to help my cat lose some weight is near impossible.  I guess I'll be giving him insulin injections which can be expensive and tedious.  And on that note I must go pick the kitty up because they just called to remind me.  This may be continued a bit later.

Later:   So Seamus is home and right back to his sleeping schedule. He has been here for several days and I'm giving him the insulin and he just watches with a look of curiosity. He gets the insulin twice a day  5 units and it's expensive.  The shot doesn't seem to hurt him although the first one seemed to startle him a bit.  I also have 4 different meds in pill form to give him and that sometimes presents a problem. I have to chart the doses just like I did with patients when I was employed as a registered nurse.  He clamps his mouth tightly and pulls away, but he never scratches or bites so I guess I can't complain.  Of all the cats I've had over 30+ years he's the most gentle and laid-back kitty I have ever known.  I think he's about 12 years old now so in cats age that is elderly and having diabetes is not unusual for a cat his age.  I hope he'll be with me and feeling good for several more years, but
of course I don't know what will happen as he ages.  I may have to make the sad choice when I think he is in pain or unable to eat, etc.  I imagine my vets will provide some guidance at that point.  Choosing to euthanize a beloved pet is not an easy thing to do, but for me it has to be about his quality of life, and not because I can't afford his medicine or vet bills or because I don't want to
deal with the difficulties etc.  One problem is that I can't go away over night, one night maybe, but more requires a sitter who can administer the meds and observe for a negative reaction.  So I'm home bound.  I don't like traveling much these days so that's not a problem, but it also means that I don't get to see my daughter and grandchildren either.  I wonder how things will work out in the next 12 months.  I have hope that all will be ok, but experience tells me that if it can go wrong it will. And on that note I'll end this blog note.

Thanksgiving Musings

Hello friends.  Today is the day before Thanksgiving.  I woke up thinking it was Thanksgiving, and I was sad, because I will be alone on that day.  Of course I'm alone today except for my kitties and will be alone tomorrow.  It happens.  Sometimes I have too much company, too much noise and I worry about preparing the turkey and other elements of the  Thanksgiving holiday.  So I am alone today and will be tomorrow.  My sister is having her Thanksgiving dinner on Sunday because all of her guests have different times and agendas.  She hasn't invited me so I'm not sure if telling me when she would have the dinner is actually an invite or just info.  How do I figure that out?  If I thought anyone in my family would be reading this blog I'd be worried, but I don't think I need to worry about it.  I'm actually not sure anyone reads my writings.  I can only wish and pretend.  But to anyone who is reading this I wish you a happy Thanksgiving celebrated with many loved ones.  I'll just be with my 4 cats.  They love me because I feed them, brush them, pet them and sweettalk them.  When I've been out for a while and come home I sort of expect to see them all near the door and rubbing into my legs. But that doesn't happen either.  They look up at me and as if to say "it's only Linda" then turn away back to their naps or food dishes.  But I've learned not to expect much affection from them unless they are hungry or I'm in bed trying to sleep.  That's when they seem to come alive.  They do purr nicely though and that relaxes me somewhat.  It's just that I can't always get them on my bed or in my lap. I guess they have things to do, promises to keep, and miles to go before they sleep.  (I think that's from a Robert Frost poem that I love.)  Look it up sometime.  You will love it too.  The cats I'm not so sure about.  One kitty has just joined me on the couch as I type this.  He's pressed against my lap and taking a mini tongue bath.  He's purring loudly and I love that.  He looks up once in a while as though to say "What's up doc?"  and I pet him and he goes back to sleep. If you don't have a cat this is all pretty weird, but if you have a cat  or 2 you understand exactly what I'm saying.  Anyway stay safe and have ah happy Thanksgiving.

Only one more thing - if you are traveling today or tomorrow or the next day the traffic is usually awful on these days so stop frequently, and maybe spend an extra day in a motel to let the traffic dissapate.  That would be safer and more relaxing.

My kitty is sick.

My usual scattered thoughts are a bit more scattered over the last 4-5 days  I have been very worried about one of my cats.  Mr. Seamus (Shea for short) who is very ill.  He doesn't know it and seems cheerful and wants to play, but we can't let him. .  He is  suffering from congestive heart failure, diabetes and more.  He's a cute little guy peach with some brown colors, medium length hair (he's in some of the pics at the first page of this blog. His name is Seamus because of his Irish like reddish hair.  He's a very sweet kitty never seems irritated, never scratches, never bites, and loves to sleep on my bed or on my stomach in the bed.  Right now and for the last 2 weeks it seems like he belongs to the vet's office, he is there so much.  They have him tonight and that worries me because I don't know if they have staff at night.  It seems to me that they would, but I just don't know it for sure, I hope someone is  there.  It feels like they have taken him from me.  I visit him every day and let him walk all around the office as long as I am with him it's ok.  Then when I leave I cry. They are nice to me and good to the animals, but I wonder if I will ever get him back home with me.  It's sad not to be able to help him more.  I think in the weeks to come I will put some more stories about Seamus and his activities here.  He's a beautiful cat, no pedigree, but a wonderful personality.  Everyone at the vets seem to like him and they have been very nice to me.  Of course I bring all my kitties to them, but only Seamus has medical problems right now.  I hope the others remain healthy for a long time.  I don't know what the outcome for Seamus will be.  This condition will not go away.  There is only treatment, but no cure.  At some point I may have to make the decision to end his life to avoid any more pain and suffering.  That also will be difficult.  Sometimes life is hard, really hard.

For the Love of Seamus

It has been some time since I've produced a new blog post.  Sometimes life gets in the way of our interests.  And just as I started to type, my cat,Chloe jumped on the couch right next to me.  She
stared at me for a few minutes and then left.  She's a character and very sweet, but easily frightened .  I guess she found better things to do and left.

 This has been a not so good week for me so far.  My kitty Seamus is being held for ransom  by my vet.  He has been diagnosed with CHF which is congestive heart failure and they are trying to stablize him and save his life as well.  I go to visit him at the vets twice a day.  He purrs when he sees me and sits near me and lets me hold him for a short time.  I usually stay for an hour or more.  I miss having him at home.  He is the most affectionate kitty, loves to get in my lap and sleeps on the bed with me at night and pushes his head into my hand sometimes for petting.   I think his life will be shortened because of this condition, but I don't really know by how much.  Indoor cats can live to be 19 to over 20 years old if they are well cared for, but with such a serious condition I just don't know.  My 3 other cats have not revealed if they have noticed that he is missing.  The people at the vets office are kind and helpful, but I'm not sure what they can do for him.  I am keeping him in my prayers and hoping for the best, but I dread the thought of making that life or death decision.  I don't know what I'll do if he dies.  He's too young to go!!!   My next problem will be the bill.  Vet care is expensive and most animals don't have health insurance.  Credit Cards help but they only delay the inevitable and charge interest.  So I'll have to see what I can work out with the doc.   I would love to know how other people handle these types of situations.  A lot depends on one's age, savings, and other expenses.  It is possible to get pet insurance, but it's expensive and I don't have any right now.   I do have them microchiped, and registered with the company online, but haven't needed to use that thankfully.

If you are reading this entry and have had a similar situation, I would love to hear how things worked out or how you came to a decision either way.  It might help me figure out a solution, or make me feel better to know I am not alone.

They didn't ask me!!!

Today I made a salad for dinner and poured my favorite salad dressing on it.  but there was something different, something that I didn't like. It was spicey hot and burned my mouth and tongue. I took out the bottle and looked for a number to call them and complain to them. I couldn't find one on the bottle, but I'll keep looking online.  I don't care if they want to make that type of dressing, but at least warn the shoppers who might buy the products.  I'm going to either throw the whole thing out or give it to someone who might like hot sauce.  The label does say spicy, but I didn't see that until after I tasted it. Other than that word the label is exactly like the regular one that I usually buy. I think the label should be different, a different color and the words spicy hot might help weed out the ones who don't  appreciate painful food.  Not everyone likes the burn, and Ifall in that category.  Now I have to figure out what to do with a bottle of salad dressing that I hate.  I guess throw it out or ask my friends if they are interested in some spicey sauce  the most likely alternatives. Next time I'll read the label more carefully I guess. A few years ago they changed the formula and there was an organized protest from fans of the regular type.  Now here they go again without warning or clear info on the label. They will be sorry!!!  I hope.  Now I have to figure out what to do with a nearly full bottle of something I don't like at all.  How does one take the burn out of a sauce?  I'm sure I don't know.

Been a While

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Been a while since I've added something new to this blog.  I've been busy with so much stuff I don't know where to begin.  So I'll just say I hope I've been missed a little, but I'm thinking maybe all 2 of my readers didn't know I was remiss in my blog entries.

I've been cleaning, running a mile everyday (for exercise and weight control) and taking care of my
kitties esp. the one with some medical problems. I have 4 cats and one has had some medical issues.
He is now diabetic and has congestive heart failure.  He's being maintained on meds and seems to be
doing well.  He sleeps a lot but still has a wonderful, easy going personality, or should I say catsonality?  I have to give him an insulin injection twice daily and force some pills down his little
throat.  I hate that part.  He always looks at me with such surprise as if he were saying "How could
you???).  But he doesn't know he needs these things to keep him alive and functioning.  I am an RN
and it's a good thing because my vets didn't offer any instruction on how to administer injections to
a cat, or how to shove pills down his little throat.  I bought one of those gadgets to administer the pills the shots are a little easier, but I do feel kind of sad forcing all this medication on him, though I
know that without it he would die a slow a miserable death so that leaves me with 2 choices ie administer the meds or have him put down - which is something I can't even talk about. Just typing the words has brought me to tears. I want him to live much longer.  He's just too sweet to lose.  He's only about 8 years old.  He came to me one day when I was outside hanging laundry to dry.  He just walked up to me and rubbed against my legs.  It seemed he must have a home to be so at ease with people he didn't even know.  I didn't bring him in right away figuring he had to have a home because he was so friendly.  I think he may have been less than a year old because of his size.  So I brought him inside and he's been with me eversince.  I never let him out alone - only with me does he explore. He's good though he stays with me with no leash.  He did get out on me once and didn't come back for about 4 hours.  I was frantic and told him never again.  Don't know if he listened.

Having Compassion

I sometimes wonder how people feel about their pets.  I know there are extremes of love and adoration and also of neglect and abuse just from reading the headlines once in a while.  I guess one could say the same about parents and their children.  Sadly there is abuse in so many areas from the sneaky,  hard to prosecute to the more obvious done in public almost.  Animals and small children are not really of the same importance, but certainly sometimes in the same category of victims of abuse,
and even the elderly are subject to abuse, frequently at the hands of the ones who should be protecting them.  Then of course there are the animals that are raised for food and often mistreated as well.  What is inside someone's heart and mind who abuses a child or an animal that only has a short time to live?  I have seen footage of ducks, chickens, etc being abused on their way to being killed for food.  I'm not a vegetarian, but I do have compassion for the poor animals who live their lives chained to a post , living in a small spot until they are fat enough to be killed and butchered and sold for consumption.  The second issue is the lack of clean facilities.  In some cases the poor animals live their entire lives in one spot, standing in their own waste until they are slaughtered.  The food and drug admin, or some other agency should insist on a different and better way of handling these poor animals.  Yes the meat would cost more, but we really only need small amounts of meat and dairy for our protein source.  Vegetables are safer and healthier for humans and only children need milk and maybe the elderly who have trouble chewing some types of food.

Today I brought my sweet kitty to the veterinary clinic which is quite near my home.  I had to leave my 10 year old cat (approximately)  for testing and observation.  He is a diabetic (recently diagnosed) and they will check his blood glucose levels throughout the day and help me care for him with a plan for controlling his diabetes and anything else that come with the diabetes.  I know that some children are not treated as well as my cats are (I have 4).  That is a sad commentary on Americans who have the best opportunities to improve their lives and their children's and pet's lives, but so often are neglectful and allow terrible things to happen or worse participate in the terrible happenings.

So today hug your children, and your pets and be kind and gentle with both.  You will feel better for that.  I will feel better when my kitty is back home with me later today.

Having Compassion

I sometimes wonder how people feel about their pets.  I know there are extremes of love and adoration and also of neglect and abuse just from reading the headlines once in a while.  I guess one could say the same about parents and their children.  Sadly there is abuse in so many areas from the sneaky,  hard to prosecute to the more obvious done in public almost.  Animals and small children are not really of the same importance, but certainly sometimes in the same category of victims of abuse,
and even the elderly are subject to abuse, frequently at the hands of the ones who should be protecting them.  Then of course there are the animals that are raised for food and often mistreated as well.  What is inside someone's heart and mind who abuses a child or an animal that only has a short time to live?  I have seen footage of ducks, chickens, etc being abused on their way to being killed for food.  I'm not a vegetarian, but I do have compassion for the poor animals who live their lives chained to a post , living in a small spot until they are fat enough to be killed and butchered and sold for consumption.  The second issue is the lack of clean facilities.  In some cases the poor animals live their entire lives in one spot, standing in their own waste until they are slaughtered.  The food and drug admin, or some other agency should insist on a different and better way of handling these poor animals.  Yes the meat would cost more, but we really only need small amounts of meat and dairy for our protein source.  Vegetables are safer and healthier for humans and only children need milk and maybe the elderly who have trouble chewing some types of food.

Today I brought my sweet kitty to the veterinary clinic which is quite near my home.  I had to leave my 10 year old cat (approximately)  for testing and observation.  He is a diabetic (recently diagnosed) and they will check his blood glucose levels throughout the day and help me care for him with a plan for controlling his diabetes and anything else that come with the diabetes.  I know that some children are not treated as well as my cats are (I have 4).  That is a sad commentary on Americans who have the best opportunities to improve their lives and their children's and pet's lives, but so often are neglectful and allow terrible things to happen or worse participate in the terrible happenings.

So today hug your children, and your pets and be kind and gentle with both.  You will feel better for that.  I will feel better when my kitty is back home with me later today.

Cat & Mouse Game

I guess it's about time I got back to writing,. It's been a while due to life's distractions ie home maintenance, flower planting, mouse hunting.  Yes that's right "mouse hunting,"  It seems that when one stores certain appliances, in this case an air conditioner in a shed for the winter (in New England) field mice like to make a nice warm nest there which will protect them from the harsh, cold weather.
So this little critter was  quite comfortable I guess when the AC unit was brought into the house and
installed into one of the living room windows, but he woke up and climbed up the curtains.  We managed to catch him and put him outside.  The weather was nice so I thought he'd be fine.
What I didn't count on is that there were 2 mice in the unit. I discovered that bit of info the next
day when he was walking on my curtain rod above my head (I'm short and couldn't reach up to
the rod to grab him).  However the mouse had a better idea (for him).  He traveled quickly down the curtain with 4 cats and myself in hot pursuit and managed to escape. I almost had him in my hand
but he was clever and managed to avoid the kitties who sat and watched intently, but did not  pursue.
At one point he ran past me and I reached for him, but he was good, never looked back, just kept
moving.  I have no idea where he went, but I thought at least one of the cats would catch him
and bring him to me for approval, but no - that didn't happen and now I worry that it will crawl
in my bed or into my food cabinet for crackers.  It's now about 4 days since the chase and he's
still in hiding.  I fear that at some point I'll open a cabinet or a closet and he'll jump out at me.  I
can't believe that he's still lose in the house with 4 cats  on duty (mind you they sleep through
their duties most of the time).  If the little critter is caught I'll certainly write about the incident
here so you'll have some closure.  If I don't find him I might have to move , being careful not to
bring him with me.  Any suggestions for catching the critter?  Leave them in the comments section. .
However traps can't be used because it might hurt my kitties, and I wouldn't want that. Have-a-heart
traps might work if I can find one.  I'm open to any ideas.


8/31/16  Never did find the mouse (dead or alive) and never found parts of him so I'm hoping he got out when we had the basement door opened for some reason. There are lots of sunflower seeds out
there for the birds and squirrels that the mouse might find tasty.

Thoughts on Christmas

Christmas is now over, and we should be free of the anxiety related to money woes, shopping needs and the time shortage.  But I think there is a sort of post Christmas  review of our activities and
and purchases and even the gifts we have received.   We give gifts hoping that someone will really
enjoy, if not we don't really want to know that.  I don't mind if someone exchanges a gift I  have
given.  I want him or her to enjoy my gift and if that means exchanging or regifting I think that's
ok, but having said that I must admit that much of my attitude depends on how I find out.  I prefer
the person mention it to me rather than kind of hiding that she exchanged it.  I think gift cards are
probably the best, but even there one might not like the store where the card is registered.  My
credit card company, and several others provide gift cards that are ok for any store that takes the
usual credit cards - Discover card, American Express and Mastercard and Visa all offer the cards
for varying amounts.  Loss of the card just as with money causes a headache so consider the recipient's age and   sense of responsibility when giving money cards.  But for older and more
responsible kids they're ideal.   Perhaps this blog entry should have been written during the pre-
Christmas buildup to shopping.  Oh well maybe next year.  I hope everyone who reads this had a
 great Christmas and New Year celebration and most importantly, has a great year to come.

Visiting FL

Well, I'm visiting my daughter again in FL.  Trying to help her out with a few things and visiting
with the kids who haven't had much time for me, but they're busy in school and I'm OK with that
as long as I get a few hugs and kisses once in a while.  I take the dog for walks and he seems to like
me if his display of excitement and craziness is an indication of his feelings for me.  I do like him.
I have cats and love them (all 4).  They are so cute, and such company, but they won't go for walks
with me - on or off leash.  Each seems to have a mind of his own (and my one female) and they
don't have any sense of obligation.  They think I'm staff brought in to attend to their needs and
wants (excepting baths - none of that please).

The weather here is quite nice: warm, sunny, light breezes, some rain which cools things nicely.
But it is more of a working vacation we have stuff to do for the lawn (HOA somewhat demanding
about the lawns, paint colors, driveway debris and so much more).  I would like to sell this house
and never see FL again, but my daughter is here and therein lies my dilemma.  So until I get too
old to travel I'll need it if I'm going to see her from time to time.

In this mobile world in which we live  many families share this dilemma with me, and I would
love to know how they work things out.  My daughter left CT for college in FL and never wanted
to return to CT except for short visits.  But when I see some friends or aquaintances whose
children are needy and costing them much money even after finishing school, or driving them
crazy with demands for child-care of their grandchildren, or in trouble with the law, or in poor
financial situations I realize that whatever I might complain about could be 10 times worse.  So
with that in mind I hold my thoughts and complaints and write about them in my journal and
somestimes here.
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Florida Trip

Well here I am again and wanting to share my worries with readers (all 3 of you).  I'll be heading
to FL (from CT) to visit my daughter (shortly after Halloween).  We'll be down there for maybe
2 weeks.  Though I'm looking forward to seeing my daughter and grandchildren, I am not looking
forward to the drive.  I have to arrange for a cat sitter, clean my house, pack clothes some for the
road and some for when I'm down there.  I guess once we get past NJ we'll be safe from snow, but
then we face it again on the ride home.  I love my daughter and grandchildren and at first loved
the trip to FL.  Once we traveled through the mountains and it was breathtaking, but I guess as I
 age it gets a little harder to plan, to leave my kitties, to drive to and from and to know what I need
to bring. I've tried bringing "everything", but that didn't work.  I suppose I should start my list.
Let's see  clothes, (socks, undies, shoes, nightgown, robe and more),  Reading material is also
important, and I just got new glasses so I can see better now.  But the trip takes a toll on me
(probably on my significant person too, but he doesn't complain).  I know as I get older these
trips will be even less often than they are now.  After all how long is it safe for a person to make
this kind of trip as she or he ages?   Then there's the problem of driving in FL.  I don't want to
speak unkindly about FL traffic, roads and drivers, but the male drivers are a bit agressive and
hostile especially if one is driving with out of state plates.  The roads are 2-4 lanes in each
direction, moving fast which is fine I guess if you know your way around, but if one is used to
the 2 lane roads in the hills of  CT, those roads can seem a bit scary.  God help you if you
take a wrong turn!  It could take you days to find your way out of the maze unless a friend
or relative sends out a rescue team or you get killed in an accident. I'm sure anyone who reads
this will think I'm exaggerating unless he or she has been to certain areas of FL.  If you live there
and are fairly well adjusted to their traffic flow you might think I'm exaggerating, but talk to
people who only have visited a few times and happen to come from a small town somewhere
 else (like New England) and you might understand a little more.

Years ago I lived in FL when I was newly married and not yet had any children, and for a time
we were too poor to afford a vehicle, and when we did get one it was old and unreliable, but
it did help me go grocery shopping, and a few other errands.  Even then I found the big 4-6
lane highways intimidating and pretty much confined my travels to the Air Force base
(Patrick Air Force Base on the east coast).  Fortunately they had most of what we needed
to live there ie food, clothing, small movie theater, some recreational activities and the Atlantic
Ocean was walking  distance from our tiny apartment.  It was a beautiful place to live, but so
hot.  I think I knew then that FL would not become our permanent home if I had a choice.  My
daughter does seem to love it and her children who were born there think it's great.  My
granddaughter, though was crazy about snow when she was here in CT.  It was cute to see her
so excited about something that most New Englanders moan about (except those in the ski
business). It is fun to take a look back at my life so many years ago and contrast it to what it
is like now.  So many changes: computers, cell phones, amazing cars, affordable flight travel,
cheap long distance calling, space travel, color TV  (giving my age way now).  Some pretty
amazing medical advances have also occured during the last 50 or so years.  We should all do
this exercise once in a while.  It makes one grateful for all we now have.  One thing that also
changes is warfare.  It seems peace is still illusive as there is still fighting in so many places,
much hate, racism and crimes of all sort, but the weapons are different and the reasons for
the fighting are less clear at least to me.  So much just seems like hate, opression, and crime,
then  anything else.  It also seems that many people aren't content to have freedom of religion
unless it's their religion.  There are some religions that want to push for conversion, some that
want to use force to bring people into the religion, some religions that want to hurt or destroy
members of other religions.  I cannot understand this, though I do understand being fearful of
some of the more radical religions, but let us remember that Christians were radical at one
time making life horrible for other religions to have a peaceful coexistance, and the Jewish
religion is blamed for the crucifixion of Jesus Christ because he taught a new way to think.
I really believe in live and let live, but that doesn't mean (to me at least) that one should force
his or her beliefs or religion on other groups, but laws of the land should prevail.  No killing
your female off spring because she dated a young man of a different religion or nationality.
That should not be tolerated and the perpetrator should be punished to the fullest extent of
the law.  In this country we have rights for everyone.  If someone wishes to live here he
should follow the laws of this country.  If he doesn't like them then he should leave and go
back to his homeland and see if that's better.  It might be better for the men, but not usually
for the women of these nations.  It's amazing to me that such a mass exodus of people
from the middle eastern nations is taking place in the name of  freedom and a better life,
but will the life be any better if they bring their brutal heritage and tradition with them? They
must change their traditions or they will hate it here and possibly be hated by the people
who don't believe in their ways.  Their women need more respect and protection and their
daughters should not be sold or married off for a price.  Women's rights need to be addressed
now.

Reading Accessories

I've been on a reading binge.  Going through books fairly rapidly, but they were all rather long, mostly Kindle books.  I love my Kindle, though I hear a lot of people say they love the books,
the feel of the paper etc.  But in my opinion books aren't made right.  I find that with most of them
holding them is awkward.  Hard covers are often heavy and don't stay open, and paperbacks won't
stay open and it's too easy to lose the place.  If the central margins were wider it would work
better, but then  it would take more pages to print the whole book.  So that is one delemma, using
the Kindle eliminates that problem, plus one carry a whole library around in a purse or a large
pocket.  And as I read each book on my Kindle I just click on "remove from device" and it cleared
and stored in my Kindle account at Amazon.  They have several different styles.  I know that there
are a few other reading devices on the markets - my grandchildren all have Kobos and they love them.  There was a third type, but I think it's been discontinued.  I also like the Kindle Cloud reader at Amazon.  I am able to use it on my laptop.  Once set up and opened it too becomes a hands-free reader, but a little more awkward than the Kindle, but better in some other ways. I can enlarge the type and read any Kindle book on it.  BTW  I'm not getting paid by Amazon for this info I'm sharing.  One last thing is that all the Kindles and the app for the computer are all synced so you can start with the computer and continue with the Kindle device and the divice will know where you left off on the last device. The computer Cloud Reader however offers something that I don't think I can do with the regular Kindle (though I'm not sure).  If I find a special passage or reference that I want to save or share with someone all I have to do is highlight and do a copy and paste to an email and then send it or store it in a file I have for interesting quotes.  I think that is a great tool for students who often
want to use some quotes in the papers they write.

Computers and Passowrds

Am I the only person who has trouble with passwords?   Before I retired I had to remember about 8 different passwords.  Each department or service had it's own requirement so using the same password was impossible.  Then they made us change them every 3 months.  I'm a registered nurse and now retired, but the last 1-2 years were a nightmare in the password department.  Try to imagine
a medical emergency and a patient needing a medication that is locked in a vault requiring ones
user name and password - one tiny error and one is locked out in an emergency!!!  For the first
20 or so years we only needed a code to get into the pharmacy or med room.  Then computers
(which I enjoy) came into play. We had passwords for our personnel files and we were required to change them every 2 months (not repeating any as they change).  We had codes or passwords for
the pharmacy, the utility room, the instrument packs room, even the bathroom.   There were a few
more, but I think you get the idea.  It seemed I was always getting locked out of one or 2 of
the areas.  It never bothered management because they didn't go into all those rooms. They stayed
in their offices and had only one or 2 passwords to think about.  I was not sorry to leave that all
behind me when I retired.

Now that I'm at home a lot I use my computer and email and check my accounts online.  But
again I have multiple passwords to remember.  I do have a password program to store them and
when I'm on my home computer I can check them, but should I have to change one I need to
remember to change it in the storage program and quickly before I forget it or get it mixed up.
The trouble begins when I have to access an account away from home or on another computer.
And sometimes they make me change it just as the hospital did - for security reasons.  Three
days later I forget that I changed it and attempt to sign into my bank to pay bills and I use the
wrong password  then after 2 attempts I'm locked out.  Then there is a whole separate procedure
for regaining entrance to the site.  Somedays I just put a check in an envelope and mail it.  Seems to
take less time for that, unless the payment might be late then I have to go through the process in
order to get it sent  electronically.

I do believe that computers are wonderful and provide speedy service for the most part, but at
they can drive me to distraction and hair pulling.  They often won't accept the correct password
if it's been a while since I accessed that site so then I have to jump through hoops again.  I think
I'm getting too old for this stuff and being ADD doesn't help my concentration or memory either.

For all who happen to read this blog - I wish you easy passwords and accomadating computers.